fgs aaron leave me asks so i dont have to keep doing this hahah, but i thought it was gonna cost £50/60, they said that when i went in, but then i took the song in today and they measured it all against me and stuff and its costing a tad more than expected :3
i still feel her
i have no confidence what so ever, so yes i know im not beautiful and i know i dont tend to have a good feature about me, i know im the type of girl you look at and think OH DEAR GOD WHO LET THE DOGS OUT, but im trying to overcome my hatred for myself and right now im doing okay.
i have my tattoo booked for next thursday, it was to big to fit down my side so its going down my shoulder and finishing at the bottom of my back and gonna take an hour and a half
this is my first tattoo, and i have a phobia of needles, this will be a field day.
i’m so fed up of feeling shit about myself, am i not good enough for anyone on this planet really? cause all the ones i seem to like either find me repulsive or just dont ever like me like that.
i get that im not beautiful, that im not to good at starting conversations off, that im quite socially awkward, i get that, im not stupid.
but im a good person, i dont see why the people that are beautiful but are bad people get everything and the good ones, the average ones, the ones that would actually make you happy get put to the back and nobody bothers with them, nobody cares enough to call them beautiful or tell them that they matter, them people, people like me, i dont think that the beautiful ones realise what its like to never have somebody tell you that you’re beautiful, it makes you think that nobody actually finds you beautiful or perfect, and to think that nobody else thinks that makes you beleive yourself that you’re not, makes you beleive yourself that you’re not worth as much as the beautiful ones.
but will someone just take the time to get to know me? cause i’m a good person, im a kind caring, loving person, im the person that everybody moans about not having, the romantic, sweet kind, im that person, but nobody bothers to get to know me? everybody dismisses me because im not beautiful.
i have like 0 confidence about myself, i could list millions of things i hate and 1 think i reasonably like, but i’d started to feel better about myself, started having more confidence, then today i’ve felt so shit, so so shit, i feel ugly and pathetic and useless and like nobody will ever want me, i feel disgusting, i want someone to make me feel beautiful again.
